Many things in my life have made me into the person i am today. When I was in the 6th grade was where it all started. I would get these painful moments where I couldn't breathe and they would carry on for hours, I didn't know what they were. I silently had these for years suffering through the pain wondering what was wrong with me. I came to a point in my life when I was 13 when I couldn't take it anymore and started cutting myself, or going into extreme rages where I would break things and tear up my room. My cutting got worse, which is why I decided to talk to someone, a friend. Almost immediately after I told my friend other people knew, and I was being called down to the school office. The VP said she was calling my parents to inform them of my activities, and said it was just a phase, I was just upset, but when she asked why I did it I couldn't answer, I didn't even understand why I was like this. That night i decided to try and end my life, thankfully though i was unsuccessful. So I learned from my actions I became more secretive cutting in places people couldn't see. I went into high school and carried on the way I was, even worse. This is when I realized what was going on with me, I was having anxiety attacks, 5-6 times a week. It was then at one of the lowest times in my life I found 2 of the most amazing people's have ever met. I opened up to them, told them both everything, about trying to kill myself, the cutting, the attacks, all of it. They told me together help, that night I went home and told my parents, I was then placed with a counsellor qualified for my illnesses. She helped me realize what I had and how to overcome it. I have been diagnosed with: extreme panic disorder, obsessive compulsive disorder, social anxiety, and clinical depression. I am now diagnosed with 4 mental illnesses, and I'm okay with that because I have grown to become an unmedicated cut free person who can deal with their anxiety.